Back to My First Love

Okay, I’m writing again. And I promise that I’ll make it a struggle to be able to bring myself to writing something, even at least twice a week. It’s not that I don’t have time, or that I’m out of thoughts, I guess I’m just being lazy.

Writing is my first love – or maybe I’m just forced to love it. First of all I’m fat since birth so you don’t expect me to do well in sports. Second is that we’re poor so instead of working my spare time on some hobbies, I have to help with most of the house chores as well as do some tasks for our neighbors in exchange for some cash. And the list goes on; I’m done with self pity so let’s get over with it. What really get me into writing are those essay-type questions during exams – something that I did quite well. I really loved essays that I wished all exams will be done that way (I think I got my wish since I got to solve Mathematical equations on three pages of yellow pad). High school isn’t so much of a challenge but when I went to college, I got my baptism of fire through the school paper. It is then that I realized that I really could write, and that I’m good at it – because I’m not good at basketball, or debate, or dancing or singing. Honestly, I just love sharing my thoughts, my ideas, and my daydreams, and since I am not good at talking about them, I resorted to writing about them.

Writing, for me, is a way of sharing my present, reminiscing my past, and envisioning my future. I have my shares of experiences, good and/or bad, and I want to impart them for people to learn from them. I have my sufferings and sacrifices and I want to express them just to lighten the burden that they cause. And the best of them all is that I have an idea of what I wanted to be and where I wanted to go and I want to share that dream. Again, I’m not good at expressing them in any other way except writing.

I’m not really sure where does this leads me to, but I hope I’ll be able to write about something most of the time. I have lots of things in my mind and I want to let them out to give way for some new thoughts. Not that I consider a career in writing, but who know where the tides leads me. So, expect another article next week. If there’s none, please remind me through SMS or email, and if you’re just around the corner, hit me in the head. Alhamdulillah!